Makes You Think!!

As you get older, you lose friends and you gain some but sometimes you keep them for a long time. I've had my best friend my whole life and of course we have our ups and downs in those years, we are still friends. My parents never truly liked my best friend because they kept on saying that oh well she's just using you and so on and so on. Of course I just ignored them because I knew that they hated her so why should I care what my parents think about my friends. Of course after all these years I truly care about her but I also get to care about my other friends to and sometimes things happen that makes you need to sit down with a friend and talk. But as I was talking with one of my friends about recent drama, we got into the topic of friends and I was saying how I just lost one friend and I don't really have many left. He of course asked which ones I had left and I said him, another friend, and my best friend. But then when I said my best friend he looked at me and kind of laughed. I asked him why he was laughing and he replied it was nothing but then he said actually your best friend uses you more than anything. Now I know he's not the first to say it so I started thinking and when I went to talk to one of my teachers she sort of agreed and so now I'm trying to think of possible times that she couldn't use my generosity in any way but not much is coming up. It's just that when your parents say something about one of your friends you don't really care but as soon as another friend says the same thing it makes you think but then yet when a teacher even thinks the same, now that really gets you thinking. Now of course I won't stop being her friend just because of that, but I guess I do have to start saying NO!!! Hopefully it won't be to hard!

Media Control!!

Not too long ago I was visiting my cousin's school because I went to pick her up but I got there during their recess. I came across the fact that a lot of the little kids seem to be dressing and acting more inappropriately at a younger age. I was simply asking myself how they would even get so much more fake at such a young age. Is it the media? When you look at a 7 year old today you realize that she sort of dresses as if she was 20 and that's not right. Not only that drugs and alcohol seem to be affecting younger age groups. It's like people need to be like the celebrities, they need to act like them, dress like them, and pretty much almost be them. The world does not need like a hundred little Jayde Nicole, Lindsay Lohan, Paris Hilton, etc.. Those people have enough problems as it is. You should just be you and not try to portrait someone who isn't truly real to us. Yes media has gotten out of hand with celebrities and the latest scandals but we shouldn't pay attention or even care about it. We have our own lives and should live them as ourselves and not like a person we see that does stupid things just to get publicity. They need to control how the media sees celebrities because now as I look at the younger kids, they seem to be trying to act like as if they were all that and they're dressed in almost nothing. It's horrible to see and it's wrong! But most likely it will get worse but hopefully sooner or later   people will realize how stupid it is to be someone they are not!!!

Volunteering!!

Volunteering most definitely pays off! As I am currently still in high school, I need forty hours of community service in order to graduate. Many or even most people wait until the last minute to get their forty hours finished but of course not everyone! For instance, as soon as I started grade nine, I started volunteering at my church with their special events. But it didn`t suffise for me because I was eager to volunteer so my cousin who is a recreational therapiste at the Whitby Mental Health Centre or well actually now it's called the Ontario Shores Centre for Mental Health Sciences, got me a volunteering position at the age of 14 when in reality to volunteer at the Whitby Mental Health Centre, you must be at least 16 and even then it's hard enough to get in. But thanks to my cousin I was able to get in. I had put in so many hours that I was awarded at their yearly appreciation dinner, the most hours for a student and my hours for one year was 166. That's a lot considering it was the same year I had started my job. I loved helping out though. All the bingo games, the outings, the dances, and talking with all the seniors (even though many of them scared me). It was an amazing experience and thanks to that I was to get a grant for 500 dollars to go towards my schooling! So volunteering pays off in more then one way because I got a lot of experience that can help me get a new job and it helps me get grants and such for college next year!

Education!!

Education is a gift. Whether you decide to cherish that gift it is fully up to you! Teachers can't do more then give us the tools we need in order to learn. Now in order to actual educate yourself on certain things, it is up to you and your brain. Teachers cannot force us to learn because they do not control our brains, meaning they can't make us make sense or remember certain things, you have to do that for yourself! If you choose not to learn that don't blame the teachers because they give you what you need in order to learn. Of course teachers don't want to see you fail but if you fail it is completely your fault. I've noticed that as you get older you tend to slack off a bit or a lot! I definitely cherish my gift of education because I love learning new things but I also make time for friends and even family. It's not hard to get decent grades and still have time for a social life. Just as long as you organize your time right and enjoy the gift of knowing.!

Love!!

Love is infinite! Your heart has as much room to love as you let it. You should love your friends and family; all your peers that you have ever spoken to, you should love. I say such a thing because no matter how long a conversation was with even a complete stranger you should love because just that conversation or certain action changed your life and made your life go on as the person you are. Of course love seems like a strong word but it depends on the depth or your love for that person that makes it such a strong word. If it's love for a complete stranger that you said hello to or help with directions or something then that love isn't love exactly but one of it's forms, which would be acceptance. You have a love in terms of acceptance of someone new in a moment of your life. But if it's a friend that you're not so close with them it might be under form of like, politeness, or even just a friendship. But then using the term love is when you can't even describe love in any other form. Always make sure you make room for everyone that had a moment of time in your life because that moment helps create you and who you are today in terms of everything from personality to attitude. Every moment of your life is something to cherish and never be token for granted. Love is infinite; love your life and love yourself and everything that made you, you!

In The End...!!

Not that long ago I changed my personal message for my msn name to harbored emotions are there no less but in the end is it worth the whole mess. So many people asked me what it truly meant and I haven't told anyone but now considering people are always talking about relationships and such and not long ago my ex boyfriend came over to my place to try to get me to go back out with him I realized how much emotions seem to take over the way you act. Harbored emotions are emotions that you keep bottled up inside and never let out. Those kind of emotions I find speak the most when faced with certain things such as the person those feelings are reflected on, talking about the person that those feelings are reflected on and mostly even just thinking about those feelings; makes you want to either scream out loud how you feel or wish that you could let them out without making your a fool of yourself and such. Technically you could let those emotions out but you never know the outcome of it. It's hard to keep emotions in but it's harder to let them out. It doesn't matter really of the age because when you fall for someone, it's hard to let them know. We become friends with people we like but always have to choose wether to risk an amazing friendship for something that might or might not work. Even though you think you get over the person, there is still always something there and in the end it's up to you to choose between regret from not trying or the pain of rejection?...